SUFFERING

i dont knw what i shud feel ryte nw.. its not her fault y im like this..
i shud knw n realise ho am i towards her.... i knw u still love him . but u x ptut wat i cmmni...
i dah pesan , cakap je kat i... tp u x buat...penah ke i marah u ???
apa la boodoh sgt ko ni AJIM.. erghhh sengal...
td pun even i x balik dah laki lain dtng.. then i x sampai umah lagi , dah u naik dgn laki lain...
yela , sapa  la  i ni nak marah u o nak laranag u buat apa3.. parents u pun x cakap apa....
tp tipu la kalau i  cakap i xda rasa sakit haty o jeless........

xpela kan.. cmni  i kena.. i x salahkan u..
i salahkan diri i ni yg terkekjar3 kan u .. mnx maaf sbb pksa u trima i... nnt i bg balik spongebob u.. i layak simpan.... n i mnx maaf kalau kita x mcm dulu lagi.. bye

KEMBALI

secara tiba2 , ko muncul kembali. setelah aku ingt segalanya sudah ku tinggalkan jauh dari aku... tetapi engkau telah memulangkann kepdaku semula . selama ni aku cuba melawan perasaan ku yg aku x ingin  lagi berada dalam jiwaku , tetapi aku lupa yg perasaa syang aku pada mu telah aku simpan dalam haty n dikunci . dan kunci itu plak aku telah campakkan jauh agar tiada siapa yg bley mngambil engkau dariku.. tp seorang insan telah jumpa kunci tersebut dan mngambil ko pergi...

aku masih ingt lagi sewaktu kita bermimpi ingin ada anak....

and nama anak lelaki ialah Hazriq.. ttpi aku lupa hndak memberitahu yg aku pnye satu nama juga..

HANA.. nama yang diambil dary namamu dan namaku...

tp itu semua impian and harapn yg merepek , mngkin bg mu . 

tp bukan bgku

evenn nw , aku ad masalh yg sama,... i akan stop berharap n leave it to the person that more qualified....

bukan gve up, ttpi bertolak ansur.... walaupun syang awak sgt..... 

aku cuba menahan perasaan aku sekali lagi.. salam

sepi....

Its been a while since i didnt hear ur laugh , 

Even its been a while u didnt slap me like u always did...

But most of all , its been a while i didnt c ur beautiful face... u knw hw much i miss u ??

more than u can imagine... i never thought that i will feel this...

even i will not sleep till u text me... but .. arghh..

i have a prob n i want to tell people but i dont knw who i shud talk too... ????

Awak Saya

perasaan aku terhadap dia

hai , aku mengaku yang aku mmg x pandai meluahkan perasaan aku pada seseorang yang aku suka... even bila nak luahkan pun , aku terpaksa mngtur ayat (skema kan) . but itulah diri aku yang xda pada orang lain. mybe that is my advantage. nway , dalam hdup aku ni aku dah berapa kali skit hati dsebabkan cinta n sayang .
BAHAGIA n KECEWA lumrah orang bercinta n berkasih sayang ...

"Love is begun by time, And time qualifies the spark and fire of it"
i read this before in one of the shakspeare novel.... and until now , i still remember it .



it just that , for the past few days , i just wondering
Is it shes ok there ??
Whether she still needs me ??
Does she still love me ??
Does smeone ady owned her ??

i really3 want to text her
even i cant sleep thinking about ur health
i knw about ur prob...

,but i can feel that like the feeling that she feel towards me has fade away through the text that she reply... mybe shes bored wit me
but i cant blame her if that what she feel...
mybe it because of ME ,  she feels that way...
but if really that happens , i just wanna u to knw that i wish we can be more than friend but is not our decision....... we just planned...
mybe the best way is to  be best friend....




before that , i wannt u to knw that
i really love you.
i miss you so much
i really care about you
and that feelings wont go away....


just promise me that u will tc urself ....

decision

aku x tahu kenapa aku rasa jiwa kacau sgt . elok3 aku duk di pantai teluk cempedak , haty aku tbe2 rasa , adakah aku ptut bersama dia ?? sdangkan aku ase mcm aku bertepuk sebelah tgn je..
mcm aku yg melebih3 sedangkan aku masih lagi d peringkat pengenalan . tp xpela , aku pun x lama lagi...
ada ramai lagi laki yg jauh lebih baik dary aku di luar sana , so...

but , haty aku xkan berubah.. erghh tngang langang blog aku...
nway nizam , ko tnngu k , kalau kalau aku sesuai jd ko pnyer penderma , dgn rela haty aku bg...
ko kawan aku dary jg lagi kan..... amin
out

Perubahan diriku

Assalammualaikum . hye guys... update kembali.

aku baru jerp abz midterm exam n agak susahla kan (sbb x baca) haha... so now aku dalam midterm break...

freeeeeeeeee tp utk smnggu je la.. e 2 pun x ley rhat coz ada assgment nak disiapkan lagi.. MGT n BEL.

so aku saja spent masa update blog ni kejap coz bestie aku sorang ni kan peminat setia . oh yaa, skunk ni ada beberapa perkembangn baru... ayat yang terbaru HANG PASEIPA SETAN stai kan...hahah
lpas 2 lagu yang menjadi kegilaan dia ialah CHAMPANGE SHOWER...... hahah... lets party rockin , like a g6...apa2 pun he still my bestie sampai sekarang n aku harap akan terus berkawan selamanyer.. at least dia yg pling aku percaya sgt3 dalam kelass aku sebab x kira aku susah , senang , ttp dia tlong aku...
aku pun kadang3 nak marah dia pun jdi gelakkkkkk.. nnt aku tnjuk gmba dia ok...hahaha

act aku nak story ni , mnggu baru ni aku dah berselisih faham dgn classmate aku . pncanyer bila dowang tgur aku suh aku senyap , but aku x tahu kenapa aku ase tguran 2 wat aku ase mcm malu sgt3 n rasa kecil haty . but mybe dowang btoll... aku admit yg aku mmg bsing dalam kelasss (dalam kelass bell je pun ) tp yela , walaupun kelass bel je , aku ptut paham yg most of them come to ITP is to learn n not to hear my nonsense . so from now on , i wont be the same anymre but i still be the same 2 kechick coz hes diff...he understands me
so maafkan aku tau korang.. life has to be go on.... :'(



aku ase x lama je lagi... sbb......................................... end......

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HEART

salam... its already 3 oclock in the morning n i still cant slepp . y ?? i still figure abot it.. nway i jus wanna talk o express my feeling .. she jus text me for the last few days ?? n she asked me too frgve her n  she wanna be frens.. i wont think it gonnna happen although i still love her , but after what he had done 2 me... sorry . but even u already knw tat dis type of things gonna happen u still choose to cheated me . u make me like a fool which credit for you , coz u able to do it to me . but who expect , a nice girl like u , can do such thing that 2 me...
grr.....
nway , now i have new life which way better than we have previous. n i think i ady have smeone tat can make my life happier n can take care of me.........

she is smeone who i didnt expect care about me more o less.....
but my heart says that shes the one.... even she heal my wound tat day.. n i really gratefulll to have smeonne like her .......<3